love and discipline

Discipline is what I need to maintain my life.
To maintain life, I need to be conscious.
I want myself to keep composure, and prioritize reality and rationality over emotions.
What I think is genuine is something that is permanent.
I’m not trying to contain all my emotions, but I need to deal with them with discipline.
I can confront them whenever I want, but I don’t want them to be shown when they’re not refined enough.
Emotions are the enemy when it comes to the egoistic trait of them.

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btw, LOVE is all we need too.
Emotions like pity, sorrow, humility, gratitude, comfort.
Why do ppl thrill to punish others as if it’s justice?
I even aware of myself have too much sin to blame somebody else.

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So what I need is a haven,
where I can breathe genuinely.
Outside the world is crude, I’m always holding my breath and hustling.
No complaint in that—rather, I feel grateful to have a place where I can rest.

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I used to doubt myself, srsly in every aspect.
It’s the virtue of relativity:
only after hardship can I tell exactly what I want and need.
I have never craved anything in my life.
After meeting somebody, I can now specify that ultimate goal—happiness.