shame

words that haunts me
looking brisky is not an option, but somehow enjoys the sarrow that haunts me randomly
uncontrolable things are way more attractive
if we are sys we have no productivity, no efficiency
only designed to kill the time and name it by time steps

why keep having a dream
being optimistic but frustrative at the same time
and i dont hate this version
feeling sorry for him and him and him
being a narcissist to hold this together
i love it but i feel sorry
i feel pain but i wake up early
such a shame born with the problem which can not be solved
overwhelm, shame and guilt is the motivation
creating so much of unneccessary misery
i am shameful, but shame.
this is so impossible
most romantic thing i can say is that you are my McDonald
might be broken
or not